I think there's a lot to be said with going with your gut instinct. Afterwards it's just so frustrating when you realise that you didn't, especially considering you probably didn't listen to the people around you and then ignored yourself as well. I'm also baffled who you could possibly be adhering to, considering you've ignored everyone in you life including yourself. Maybe there is a God after all? Frustration commence. Everything happens for a reason blah blah blah - although if what you were hoping for doesn't materialise I don't suppose it means you should stop hoping for something all together different, or maybe even better than what you wanted in the first place. Just because bad things happen doesn't mean your expectations should be lowered, at least whatever's happened that hasn't gone to plan is out the way now. Lightning rarely strikes twice. Although I do know two people who got double chicken pox.