Anti biotics

So basically after complaining about them i'm having to take a 6 week course of them again, erythromycin if you were interested. Their common side effect is nausea. This combined with my mum's 'pick me up idea' of getting me a David Lloyd membership I've estimated I'll either be banned from the gym for vomiting within a month, or will have accidentally halved my bmi in that time. Dang it.

Clearing and tearing ( as into cry, not like ripping.)

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-14600749

13,000. Unlucky for some. Indeed, that is true. Although, I think I may be delusional, I don't get the grades for medicine, I don't get the grades for my back up, I don't get the grades to be at the top of a clearing waiting list. However, when offered a place from a university, as dowdy as it may be, I decline. I clearly have some kind of complex about being more deserving and able than I am.

I am not surprised I didn't get in anywhere with my awful attitude. I am surprised however, that I did not go with my gut instinct last year, bad me. Note to self - competing is only fun when you're not doing it with yourself. Because if you lose to you, then you're just a loser, as you have not taken the time to consider who you may have beaten. Unless you consider losing with yourself winning because you were only competing with yourself so somehow one of you (being yourself) had to win. Wait, who said that?

At least if you compete with other people there will always be those who have not done as well as you. The joys of schadenfreude. Oh how sadistic I have become.

I'm now going to apply for history, as it was the only subject that on paper I was ever any good at, I knew his before I applied for Medicine, however the idea of an instant career was appealing.

My mother said earlier today that I was a 'Victim of not playing to my strengths,' despite the encouragement that was no doubt meant to consume me from those immortal words, I, now no longer the optimistic realist but a sadistic pessimist took it as the confirmation that not only had I failed to get into university, I had manage to victimise myself, in a situation, that involves no one else, but myself.

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Well, Well, Well.

Well. Well, well well, well. Well well, well well, Well. Well well well well well? Well, well well, well.

Well Well Well, Well.

We'll?

*shakes head*

'Well.'

Are you?

'Well'?

*pause*

Well...

Maybe we'll...

Well, maybe.

Down a?

Well?

We'll see.

Ground Zero.

America is currently doing a lot of recovering, what with the debt crisis, and debacle in Afghanistan, plus there is the redevelopment of Ground Zero. I despair, on the site they are building a new 'Freedom Tower' that will, in 2012, be the taller building in the United States. A generic quote it may be, but 'Those who do not learn from history, will be condemned to repeat it.'

'It is rehabilitation for those hurt by the terrorists and a way to heal the scar on a nation. Part of the healing process is new growth, which this tower represents. But it has been a painful process. The early designs were ridiculed.'

Says a website documenting the rebuild. How much better are security precautions 10 years after 9/11? Good enough to completely eradicate the probability of another attack? What would be even worse, is that if something similar happened again, not only would more lives be lost, and the tower destroyed, but the fountains with the victim's names inscribed into the walls would also be desecrated, it would be a grave yard once again. I understand the notion that some feel to leave the whole plot as a memorial would be too painful, but that doesn't negate the prospect of future terrorist attacks. Acceptance and reflection could be just as powerful as a physical form that shouts literally from the skyline of New York and America has bounced back. It often takes much more will power to leave something as it is, than to keep returning to it.

http://www.glasssteelandstone.com/BuildingDetail.php?pageNum_UserComments=6&totalRows_UserComments=1282&ID=439

Re-blog after Re-ading Hitchens.

So, i'm half way through 'God is not Great' and would just like to point out I wrote the passage below before reading Christopher's book. Basically, he slates, well, criticises at least Dawkin's attempt to rebrand Atheists as the 'enlightened'. Just saying, I said it first, well, before I'd read it.
Traditionalists

It strikes me as ironic that those who view anti abortionist and gay rights groups as ideals which are no long practically applicable in this day and age are alluding to left field, revisionist come enlightened thinking. Where as those traditionalists who actually are against abortion, gay rights etc, are more often that not following the lord's 'enlightened' path.

This does not apply to those who view the issues mentioned as wrong on a matter of moral not religious grounds, everyone is entitled to their beliefs.

A crisis maybe, mid life it may not be.

In today's Observer Magazine Miranda Sawyer wrote about a mid-life crisis/slump. She points out how at 24 she didn't know she would make it to 44, so it's pretty difficult to put the behaviour that characterises a mid-life crisis down to the fact that you are half way through your time on earth, because you could be 3/4 of your life through, or even 5/6 of the way, maybe 2/8, who's to say. It would be interesting to look at the lives of those who died before their perceived 'time' (or the age that is calculated as the national life expectancy,) and see if at half way through their lives, at whatever age that may have been, they displayed the behaviour that some people display at the point which is the traditional 'middle age', and see if the universe was trying to tell the rest of the world, and the person themselves something.